These days ..

The blinking cursor

curses even more

when you keep staring the screen

like an ullu

(wont use the word ‘owl’

for it is wise in the West)

flailing futile for the straw

of an idea to catch; unlike the hay

stuffed in the hollow of your brain.

It is right then, when you shut the cursor down

and go on a Tweeting spree.





I feel pity on this blog for the way it suffers the brunt of inactivity thanks to the rainless seasons in the barren lands of my mind. I started this to grow green pastures of optimism amid the infertility all around me, but alas!

So, the current is a rather lame effort to keep it alive for I have nothing significant to write. What about sharing with you a rather ‘funny’ incident that happened to me a couple of days back? Hmm .. let me recall it;

On the scorching last Sunday afternoon, I went out to the market to have some groceries. As I walked back towards my flat I felt as if somebody on a motorbike was chasing me. I sensed it right when he stopped right beside me and asked,

‘hello, do you live in this hostel?’, he pointed towards the nearby boys hostel.

‘no’ I replied rather politely. ‘why? is it alright?’

‘I actually have seen you somewhere. Do you go to the City gym?’ he took his helmet off, ran his fingers in those sweaty, shiny locks of his and I nodded to his query. As though in a hurry he asked my cell phone number which I couldn’t refuse. (my mannerism got the better of me, to my shock and bewilderment later). I offered him a cup of tea or cold drink which he smilingly promised for some other time later.

Later when I pondered the whole encounter, I couldn’t stop scolding myself for giving personal information to strangers out there. The thing became tricky when I received this sms like;

‘hey, it was nice to meet you yaar!’ to which I replied, ‘but I’m curious as to why you stopped and asked me those questions; tell me about yourself’.

The series of his replies incensed, shocked and amused me when he introduced himself to be an internee in a bank and showed his willingness to have with me ‘a relationship of romance’ 😛 I curbed my intention of bashing him for good and shut him up with a reply which thankfully he understood.

A friend of mine took his number and introduced himself to be somebody with an ‘open mind unlike Aadil’s conservatism’ to play a prank on the eccentric being but the ploy couldn’t work courtesy my friend’s mentioned age of 40 😛

On a serious note, the whole episode reminded me of how moralities evaporate and how values overlap in the age of so called globalization.

P.S: Some of the details have consciously been skipped to avoid indecency. I apologize if it still is.

P.P.S: It was Farhan who prompted me to post this encounter since I mentioned it on my twitter account 😉

40(a whole lot of)Questions

Ayesha handed us the tag after doing it impressively on her blog. Here it is;

1. My uncle once: accompanied me to his Bahrain (Swat) house in the off season to arrange for some repair work in his house. It was the only time I visited Swat in winter that was freezing cold.

2. Never in my life: Have I puffed a cigarette; I’d like to have a go at sheesha sometime, though

3. When I was five: I was an intelligent kid they say, only to spoil with the progression of time; now I’m one foolish being 😛

4. High School was: Situated on the Bank Road. We’d play cricket during the break-time in the Company Bagh. We in the 9th class would almost always beat the 10th that would give us immense pride and joy. Ah, the good ol times!

5. I will never forget: My childhood rains; the way I’d drench myself in the rainwater, riding on the bicycle in the streets in my hometown. I cherish those memories the most.

6. I once met: An atheist who tried his best to convince me to subscribe to his set of beliefs. I came back cursing myself for asking him a favor.

7. There’s this girl I know who: Is Breathtakingly beautiful. She inhabits a jungle full of fierce beasts. May she be safe and unharmed!

8. Once, at a bar: Never at a bar, not for my piety but the unavailability of ones here in Isloo 😛 (Joke a side, I loathe alcohol)

9. By noon, I’m usually: Done with my office work

10. Last night: I couldn’t sleep proper; it has become a routine now

11. If only I had: The necessary life skills, I wouldn’t be fretting all the time

12. Next time I go to the Temple: Next

13. Rakhi Sawant: Not ma cuppa tea!

14. What worries me most: Is the unjust economic world

15. When I turn my head left, I see: A window covered with blinds

16. When I turn my head right, I see: A sofa with a heavy-weight friend seated on it 😛

17. You know I’m lying when: I write all things rosy; it occurs very rarely though

18. What I miss most about the nineties: The Pakistani pop music, college, playing cricket etc.

19. If I was a character in Shakespeare, I’d be: Am not that familiar with Shakespearian characters, I always wish to read him thoroughly though

20. By this time next year: Don’t ask me the question; the future looks bleak!

21. A better name for me would be: Pareshan Khan 😛

22. I have a hard time understanding: Myselfmylifeandallthingsme

23. If I ever go back to school, I’ll: I’ll try to do well in mathematics

24. You know I like you if: You’re patriotic with a balanced outlook of things. I don’t like you if you’re a liberal fascist!

25. If I ever won an award, the first person I’d thank would be: Depends on who inspired me the most to win that

26. Sachin Tendulkar, Mozart, Sonia Gandhi & Ronaldo: Of all I’m impressed with Sachin and Ronaldo(the Christiano)

27. Take my advice, never: Open your heart to every Tom, Dick or Harry; I’ve done it and I suffered most the time.

28. My ideal breakfast is: Halvapuri, Channas, Slices with jam, Chai, and what not and what not .. 😀

29. A song I love, but do not own is: ‘Hero’ by Enrique Eglisias

30. If you visit my hometown, I suggest: To visit the monuments of Gandhara Civilization at Takht Bhai

31. Tulips, character flaws, microchips, & track stars: Tulip Revolution In Kyrgyzstan

32. Why won’t people: Stop asking me the question when to tie the marital knot!

33. If you spend the night at my house: Isn’t it a strange question, eh?

34. I’d stop my wedding for: Why the heck would I do so ;)

35. The world could do without: The luxuries like Burj Dubai ..

36. I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: Than flattering my boss

37. My favorite blonde is: Not a particular blonde favorite

38: Paper clips are more useful than: Notebook backs to write on

39. If I do anything well, it’s: Gonna be a miracle

40. And by the way: I did this rather longish entry in parts coz of a few official routines

Cheeni kum ..

‘Cheeni kum’ a stirring Bollywood flick released a couple of years back was quite an aberration with its unique story line where the 64 yeas old Buddha Dev Gupta (played by Amitabh Bachan) falls in love with a girl 30 years younger his age, Nina Verma (played by Tabbu).

Unlike the headlines of the scarcity of commodities like Flour and Electricity which we’ve grown used to, the recent addition of Sugar to the list of shortages makes one wonder at the aberration since Sugar is something we are self sufficient in producing.

So, where there is ‘Cheeni Kum’ the scenario is a peculiar one 😉

The Fabulous Blog Award

How could a one dimensional blog be fabulous? Its not I know, but since Ayesha considered me for the honor of this award, I’d take it gladly. Here it is …


Rules of the Award:

* List five current obsessions.

* Pass the award on to five more fabulous blogs.

* On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them.

* When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well.

* Don’t forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by leaving a comment on their blog.

I’m obsessed with;

Internet: I’ve always been. Its been an immense outlet for an introvert like mine who’s never been consistent in socializing with people in the real physical world. Its role has been immense in shaping my thoughts, stimulating my creative instincts and introducing me to a world I might have never seen without it.

Reading/Writing: I’m frustrated when I don’t find good chunks of time to read books and when I do, I feel very satisfied, very much delighted. I’m very fortunate to breathe in between bouts of killing suffocation when I’m able to write my mind. If I’m asked about the meaning of pure bliss, I won’t hesitate to call it flowing, flawless writing. Yes, I’m talking about poetic expression 🙂

Cricket: I’ve mentioned it a few times on this blog, I’m in love with the game of cricket. I follow it enthusiastically; I wish I had a career in cricket but wishes won’t do it coz I betrayed my dreams back in boyhood not to resist my brother who clipped my cricketing wings after the college days.

Vital Signs/JJ: They might be a thing of the past but here is a huge huge fan of em. I’m crazy about the music they produced. I know of almost all the songs they sung. I can’t see anyone surpassing the stature of Junaid Jamshed as a lead singer persona. His vocals had an enchanting feel to it. I like to hum JJ’s songs in solitude.

My nieces and nephew: I wonder what would have attracted me to mardan more, had they not been there. My little children maheen, 5, abeera, 3 and zunaira, 3 are my friends and Hasnain, 4 holds his toy pistol at me like I’m his old time nemesis. I love em all!

Now I’m going to hand the award to;

Alhamdolillah, Aarzoo, Spotlesssoul, Azure, Forsaker

Breaking the ice ..

I was wondering how to break the ice of silence on my blog when BMK suggested these questions to try and answer. Its fun to go about. Hope it will initiate a series of posts to come. 🙂

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:

‘The story shows how a man can triumph in spite of defeat’ This is a critical notes book on Ernest Hemingway’s ‘The Old Man And The Sea’

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

It touches the left partition wall in my office cabin.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Kashif Abbasi’s talk show on ARY

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:

12:15 or something

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?


6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

The whirring of the wall fan besides two office colleagues’ talking

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

I didn’t since I arrived at office.

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

BMK’s bongi khana

9. What are you wearing?

Trousers, half sleeved shirt, tie, shoes

10. Did you dream last night?

I can’t remember; twas a sleep after a hectic day and I barely woke for sehri

11. When did you last laugh?

Last night. I’ve had a good banter with friends after I was probed continuously for the reason of my quite mood.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

There’s a huge wall cabinet on my right, a half glassed partition on my left, a  fan on the front wall and nothing on the back.

13. Seen anything weird lately?

Hmm .. can’t recall anything particular.

14. Last movie you saw?

Twas something like, ‘Behind the enemy line’ .. but thats a long time back; I’m not that much into movies.

15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

Just let it happen, then we’ll see .. 😉

16. Tell me something about you that I don’t know.

Whats that you don’t know? .. 😉

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

I’d try to shrink the gaping void between the rich and the poor; I guess poverty is the mother of all evils. Maximum economic justice is the cry of the day.

18. Do you like to dance?


19. George bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or someone who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?

I guess Bush and Mush have a lot to do with the sorry state of affairs in todays world and especially Pakistan. They should be punished for their ways of brutality.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?


21. [Same question for a boy]


22. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Nopes, I guess.